by Cotton, Lloyd & Christian

I don’t know why you love me
Was it something I said that you read all wrong
When I, I don’t know why you follow me
After all of those times when I left you so far behind

You don’t seem to care if I ever give back
All of the love you’ve given me
You seem to be pleased if you only show me
All of the love inside of you
I wish that I could love that way too

I don’t know why you write me
When I never write back but you answer me anyway
And I don’t know why you love me
But I’m learning to love not depending on love in return

You don’t seem to care if I ever give back
All of the love you’ve given me
You seem to be pleased if you only show me
All of the love inside of you
I wish that I could love that way too

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So, I said last week that this week’s SOTW will be something about my past love. I know I’ve already mentioned his name in this blog a number of times but form now on let’s just call him A. What I’m gonna do is I’m going to choose some lines from the song and tell you an instance that had happened in the past that is somehow related to the lyrics. So, hang on cause this is going to be a long one. By the way, I chose this song because this how I feel A should feel about me. And now we begin…

I don’t know why you love me
Was it something I said that you read all wrong

I don’t know why too. LOL! I saw him on our first enrollment day in college, not knowing that he was my blockmate, and I was already attracted to him. So, I guess it was love at first sight huh? Well, he is good-looking so anyone won’t have a hard time getting attracted to him. What I don’t understand is despite of all the bad things about him, I still fell in love with him.

I don’t know why you follow me
After all of those times when I left you so far behind

This one’s not nice. We climbed Mt. Banahaw and he left me on the trail. It was just fine with me because I’m a slow climber but what irritated me was his lack of care. When we got to the first clearing where we could rest, he didn’t even asked why I was all wet… all he cared about was our lunch, because I was carrying the rice. Our other friend, Mike, was the one who showed care. He asked if I was okay and told me to rest first before preparing our lunch. On our last, we were delayed because one of the climbers wasn’t feeling well and was dehydrated. We had to bring her to the hospital and it was already past midnight and we were still in the province and we had class the next day. I had to look for a pay phone by myself on the dark streets so I could let my parents know why I wasn’t home yet when they were expecting me hours ago. Then when he saw a bus that’s going back to the city, he boarded it without asking me if I’ll be alright or if I could go home okay without him. He just looked me in the eye and then he was gone. When we talked about this trip a few years later A told me that he knew I was already scared and he knew I didn’t even know how to cross the street by myself, yet he let me look for a phone by myself. He knew he should have taken care of me, made sure I was safe, yet for some unexplainable reason, he didn’t. Weird huh?

I don’t know why you write me
When I never write back but you answer me anyway

I wrote him once, a long one, but it wasn’t a love letter… I just thanked him for everything that he had done for me, for being a good friend in spite of everything that had happened between us. He thanked me for the letter and told me he kept it but he joked about it once and I tried to get it back but he didn’t give it back to me.

I don’t know why you love me
But I’m learning to love not depending on love in return
A? I don’t think so!

Well, I hope you all got to know me a little better and enjoyed reading my post. Til next SOTW!

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