by Regine Velasquez

Pagmasdan ang ulan unti-unting pumapatak
Sa mga halama’t mga bulaklak
Pagmasdan ang dilim unti-unting bumabalot
Sa buong paligid tuwing umuulan

Kasabay ng ulan bumubuhos ang iyong ganda
Kasabay ng hanging kumakanta
Maaari bang huwag ka nang
Sa piling ko’y lumisan pa
Hanggang ang hangi’t ula’y tumila na

Buhos na ulan aking mundo’y lunuring tuluyan
Tulad ng pag-agos mo
Di mapipigil ang puso kong nagliliyab
Pag-ibig ko’y umaapaw
Damdamin ko’y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

Pagmasdan ang ulan unti-unting tumitila
Ikaw ri’y magpapaalam na
Maaari bang minsan pa
Mahagkan ka’t maiduyan pa
Sa tubig at ulan lamang ang saksi

Minsan pa ulan bumuhos ka
Huwag nang tumigil pa
Hatid mo ma’y bagyo
Dalangin ito ng puso kong sumasamo
Pag-ibig ko’y umaapaw
Damdamin ko’y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

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I found this version of the song with guitars only by Nel Pascual. I hope he doesn’t mind me sharing his talent with you… thanks Nel!

Anyway, this song is perfect for today… it’s raining! Hope I could still jog though. I love rain! But I hate umbrellas! I’d rather get wet and go home drenched than bring an umbrella. I really don’t know why… maybe because I’m too lazy. Rain actually brings back a lot of good memories.

There were a couple of times when it started raining and CO, AA and I ran to the court in our village and bathe in the rain and played like kids. It was fun! We ran around the court, singing and jumping on puddles. People from the houses around the court were staring at us but we didn’t mind them and just thought they’re only jealous cause they didn’t have the guts to do what we did. Haha! When we got home, we all took a bath together on our veranda because we couldn’t go inside the house because we were dripping wet.

And here’s another rain story… there was this one time, we climbed Mt. Tikbalang in Batangas for our org’s acquaintance trip. We started the climb at night (it was an easy climb, only 40 minutes or less) and it started raining. When it was time for the socials already, we had this game called moonshine. The idea of the game was to let the moon shine on our body… no cameras and flashlights allowed… just the moon and us. Those of us who joined were asked to form a circle and to face outside the circle. Then we were asked to remove our clothes (but not our underclothes) and to face inside the circle in the count of three. When we were already facing inside the circle, people started laughing. So I looked around and then found out why… QS (the other love of my life) wasn’t wearing anything! We were just supposed to take off our shirt and shorts but not our undies! Haha! Turned out, he took of his undies after pitching the tent because he was drenched from the rain. Hahaha! And then he went in the middle of the circle and started dancing and swaying his shorts in the air. Of course he was covering his thingy with his other hand. Haha! It was so funny and he was such a good sport!

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from the movie Enchanted

Giselle: When you meet the someone who was meant for you
Before two can become one there is something we must do
Animal: Do you pull each others tails?
Animal: Do you feed each other seeds?
Giselle: No, there is something sweeter everybody needs
I’ve been dreaming of a true love’s kiss
And a prince I’m hoping comes with this
That’s what brings everaftering so happy
And that’s the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love’s kiss

Giselle: aaaaa aaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaa
Animals: aaaaa aaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaa

Animals: Shes been dreaming of a true love’s kiss
And a prince she’s hoping comes with this
That’s what brings everaftering so happy
And that’s the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch

Giselle: So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love’s kiss

Edward: You’re the fairest maid I’ve ever met
You were made…
Giselle: …to finish your duet
Giselle and Edward: And in years to come we’ll reminisce
Edward: How we came to love
Giselle: And grow and grow love
Everyone: Since first we knew love through true love’s kiss

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I watched Enchanted last night to keep my mind from wandering to thoughts about you know who… I thought I’d watch a movie that wouldn’t remind me of him or something that I couldn’t relate to him or something that we didn’t watch together. I thought this movie would keep me occupied for at least two hours and that I’d just sleep without thinking anymore when it’s finish. Boy, was I wrong! The movie made me cry… twice. That was so lame of me. Maybe my true love’s kiss would just remain a dream.

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by Counting Crows

All of a sudden she disappears
Just yesterday she was here
Somebody tell me if I am sleeping
Someone should be with me here
Cause I don’t wanna be alone

I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand
And I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult
What a big baby, won’t somebody save me please
Can’t find nobody home

All of these quiet battered voices
Just wait for the hunger to come
We got little revolvers and stupid choices
But no one to say when we’re done
Well I don’t wanna bring you down

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
Cause I know theese little things about me
Would sing in the silence of so much rejection
In every connection I make
I can’t find nobody home

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
Cause I know theese little things about me
Would sing in the silence of so much rejection
In every connection I make
I wanna be the last thing that you hear when you’re falling asleep
I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand
And I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult
What a big baby, won’t somebody save me please
I can’t find nobody home

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This is so so me right now.

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by The Smiths

Shyness is nice and shyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life you’d like to
Shyness is nice and shyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life you’d like to
So, if there’s something you’d like to try
If there’s something you’d like to try
Ask me, I won’t say no. How could I?

Coyness is nice and coyness can stop you
From saying all the things in life you’d like to
So, if there’s something you’d like to try
If there’s something you’d like to try
Ask me, I won’t say no. How could I?

Spending warm summer days indoors
Writing frightening verse
To a buck-toothed girl in Luxembourg

Ask me, ask me, ask me
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Because if it’s not love
Then it’s the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb
That will bring us together

Nature is a language, can’t you read?
Nature is a language, can’t you read?

So, ask me, ask me, ask me
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Because if it’s not love
Then it’s the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb
That will bring us together

If it’s not love
Then it’s the bomb
Then it’s the bomb
That will bring us together

So, ask me, ask me, ask me
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Oh, la la la la la da dum

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I love this song by The Smiths. I’ve been listening to this non-stop for a few days now. I also listen to this when I’m jogging (which I have been neglecting for a couple of days now). I just love Morrissey’s voice… cool! It’s actually one of my theme songs. Haha! I can totally relate to the lyrics. Hope you enjoy this song too. Have a great week everyone!

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by Julia Fordham

I am very very much in like with you
I hope that it’s enough cause it’s all I can do
Cause you treat my skin like porcelain
Rare and special porcelain
Even though you know I know you know
That this is not the real thing

Oh, isn’t it enough what I’m giving to you baby?
Oh, isn’t it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn’t it enough, isn’t it enough?

I read a book like you, it says for what it’s worth
People only really get what they deserve
And I hear a voice cry out within
Relax, enjoy the porcelain
Treatment feels like liquid gold
A treasured hand for me to hold

Oh, isn’t it enough what I’m giving to you, baby?
Oh, isn’t it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn’t it enough, isn’t it enough?

Porcelain, porcelain
You treat my skin like porcelain

In the big, big scheme of things
Beyond the rare and special porcelain
Beyond the joy, joy and the dis-at-ease
Well there’s a place for me

Sometimes I think I should say I love you too
If words are free, why can’t I spare the best for you?
Cause you treat my skin like porcelain
Rare and special porcelain
Even though you know I know you know
I’m cracked from all of this living

Oh, isn’t it enough what I’m giving to you baby?
Oh, isn’t it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn’t it enough that I’m checking for you baby?
Oh, isn’t it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn’t it enough, isn’t it enough?

Isn’t it enough? Isn’t it enough?

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If AA has a song for me then this would be it. Sad isn’t it?
Have a great week everyone!

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I think I got it all figured out already. AA couldn’t be like DA, OC or CO. Seems like for him there’s always got to be a reason for us to talk or see each other. I don’t think I can handle that because honestly I have no real reason to see him or talk to him. For me, I’ve got to make a reason. Him naman is like he’s doing all this because he feels he needs to and not because he wants to. In some cases, needing is more important than wanting, but not in this case. And he obviously doesn’t know what my needs are as a friend. I already told him this before, mahirap akong maging kaibigan. And he just have to deal with that. Honestly, I don’t want to be the one who always inititates or ako yung lumalapit. Things are not spontaneous between us… parating may effort dapat. It’ll be hard for us to maintain the “closeness” he wants… much harder for me. Can’t we be just friends? As in friends, period! Wala na nung closeness na gusto niya. Kung magiging close, eh di close… he shouldn’t impose that closeness like what he’s doing. If we’re meant to be close friends then it should have happened a long time ago. We’ve known each other for 15 years already. And it already has been 12 years when he first told me that he didn’t want to lose me. He had that long to work on it, why only now? Naunahan pa siya nila DA and OC.

I was already doing fine in my own little corner until he came back. He tricked me into promising that we’ll see each other. I was to go offline na and I was in a hurry to go some place, he wouldn’t let me go unless I say yes to one of his invitations. Hindi na mauulit.

So I guess this is it, I’m ending this story. Sorry to all those who are waiting for sequels… sorry to leave you hanging. I think I won’t be logging into my YM account for a few days or weeks… “run away” mode muna ko. Yes, that’s how I am, I keep running away from things. And yes, I’ll be pushing him away and I’ll be going back to that little corner where I used to be. Anyway, I’ll still be posting updates, kung meron man, but I won’t be looking forward to any and I won’t get all excited if there’s any. No more “let’s see what will happen next.” And with this I’ll leave you all with a song… I’ve been listening to this the whole day. Enjoy listening!

Barely Breathing
by Duncan Sheik

I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why I say good-bye

Cause I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay

Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change

Cause I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay but I’m thinking it over anyway

I’ve come to find I may never know
Your changing mind, is it friend or foe
I rise above or sink below
With every time you come and go
Please don’t come and go

Cause I am barely breathing and I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding, imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting a fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay but I’m thinking it over anyway

I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear

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by Buklod

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dalawa’y unang magkita
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayo’y nagsimulang mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Ang mga puno’t halaman ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon bakit kailangan ding lumisan
Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon

Ngayong ikaw ay nagbalik
Katulad ko din ang yong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho, saan na napunta

Lumilipas ang panahon kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno’t halaman bakit kailangang lumisan
Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon

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This post is inspired by my friend Biggs’ post in multiply.

Like Biggs, I miss Anilao too… sooooooo much! My friends and I call it our kanlungan because that’s the song we’d almost always listen to when we go there. I’m not a windsurfer like most people who frequents the place but it is very dear to me. I first went there way back 1994 or 1995, for De La Salle Outdoor Club’s acquaintance party. Drop point namin on our way to Sombrero Island. Hindi pa yata member si AA ng Outdoor Club non. Went there siguro mga twice. And then when DA and OC and some of my high school friends got together in 1999, that’s where we would spend most of our weekends. It became our tambayan, our weekend getaway, and the people I met there became like my second family. We shared many experiences there and we’ve met different people from all walks of life, may bata, may matanda, singles, couples, families, and some became friends for keeps. I’d cherish the times that I’ve spent there for the rest of my life. Last time I went there was about two years ago, with my family and some relatives and never got the chance to go back. Baka hindi ko na din kilala yung ibang mga tao don.

I never got the chance also to go there with AA kse that time na parati akong pumupunta don, I was already “running away” from our barkada and already found my new set of friends. I say blame it all on CO. CO was the main reason why I ran away from our barkada. We had a huge fight and that gave me the chance to be with DA and OC.

DA and OC actually are not new friends that time. Matagal ko na din sila kilala, through Outdoor Club. It was one birthday party ang nagbigay sa min ng chance to be close. My barkada celebrated her birthday together with her sister, nagkataon na yung sister niya eh barkada naman nung older brother ni DA and andon din siya sa party. Then nagkita kami ulit when we were waiting to buy our Nokia phones. Mahirap pa dati bumili ng cellphone, you had to find pa a dealer. So we waited together, kasama na namin si OC and my other girl friends. And yun na, nagtuloy-tuloy na, parati na kaming nagmi-meet then we’d go on gimmicks then Anilao. We’d go to each other’s houses and on Friday nights punta na kaming Anilao and be back late Sunday night. We’d also see each other after office, have dinner or coffee or simply hang out. I use to hate cellphones that time but napilitan akong ibili ng parents ko because they almost never see me that time. Haha! Then naging officemates pa kami ni DA and OC non so as in everyday talaga magkakasama kami.

What makes these two guys different from AA and my other friends? They took care of us, as in really took care of us. We’re like one big family… OC is like our dad and DA is like our older brother. We’ve been through ups and downs and we’re always there for each other. We separated when most of them already went to the US and kami na mga naiwan dito hindi na masyadong nagme-meet. It’s like God gave us almost two years to be perfectly happy and then that’s it. But believe me, those couple of years are enough to last me a lifetime.

DA and OC are super gentlemen… as in they’d open doors for us, pampered us, kung pede lang they’d do everything for us na. Pag sakay sa car they’d open and close the door for us and sila pa naglalagay ng seatbelt. Haha! And they don’t drive too fast pag kasama kami. They don’t like makeups, nail polishes, at kung ano ano pang kakikayan, gusto nila simple lang. But of course hindi naman nila kami pinagbabawalan maging kikay. I became so dependent sa kanila that’s why din siguro nahirapan ako when they left for the US. Funny thing naman, when most of my friends are already in the States, dun naman bumalik si AA. Same thing din whenever CO and I have a fight, biglang naga-appear si AA. He’d contact me and we’d go out or pinupuntahan niya ko sa office or sa house. I don’t know kung sinasadya niya or nagkakataon lang. CO pala is our barkada (me and AA’s) and my guy best friend. That’s why AA includes him sa list na gusto niyang maging katulad when it comes to being close to me.

Siguro that’s what’s missing din between me and AA. Yes, we’ve known each other longer than how long I’ve known DA and OC. Pero mostly ng pinagsamahan namin ni AA kse good times lang talaga. I’ve been to lots of different places with him and our barkada more than I’ve been to with DA and OC pero iba talaga pa rin talaga. Quality over quantity nga talaga siguro. And big difference din nga why I can’t be that close to him is because I like him. I’m very cautious when I’m with him. What he wants is actually parang torture sa kin pero I’m really trying my best to be that kind of friend to him.

Going back to Anilao, I know that this is so selfish of me but I don’t think I’d want to share that place with my and AA’s barkada. Gusto ko yung memories ko of Anilao would be kami lang nila DA and OC, etc. Of course pedeng pumunta don si AA but not with our barkada talaga. Sama ko no? Sige pede na din pero minsan lang sila dapat pumunta don and not make it their tambayan like we did. Haha! Bad ko talaga no?

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by Blur

Tender is the night lying by your side
Tender is the touch of someone that you love too much
Tender is the day the demons go away
Lord I need to find someone who can heal my mind

Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing
Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing that we have
I’m waiting for that feeling, waiting for that feeling
Waiting for that feeling to come
Oh my baby, oh my baby, oh why, oh my

Tender is the ghost, the ghost I love the most
Hiding from the sun, waiting for the night to come
Tender is my heart for screwing up my life
Lord I need to find someone who can heal my mind

Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing
Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing that we have
I’m waiting for that feeling, waiting for that feeling
Waiting for that feeling to come
Oh my baby, oh my baby, oh why, oh my
Oh my baby, oh my baby, oh why, oh my

Tender is the night lying by your side
Tender is the touch of someone that you love too much
Tender is my heart you know for screwing up my life
Oh lord I need to find someone who can heal my mind

Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing
Come on, come on, come on, get through it
Come on, come on, come on, love’s the greatest thing that we have
I’m waiting for that feeling, waiting for that feeling
Waiting for that feeling to come
Oh my baby, oh my baby, oh why, oh my
Oh my baby, oh my baby, oh why, oh my

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ten·der adjective, -er, -est
1. easily moved to sympathy or compassion; kind: a tender heart.
2. affectionate or loving; sentimental or amatory: a tender glance.

Thanks to my friend and former officemate Paulo S. for acquainting me with this song. It’s been my favorite since the I first heard it in his car when we were on our way home from the company outing. I even made a CD with only this song, playing over and over and over again. I think this song perfectly describes my heart right from the very start of this all and it describes exactly how I am right now. Enjoy listening!

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by The Commodores

I want you to want me
I’m going crazy knowing she will be your lover tonight
And when she comes I’ll let you go
I’ll just pretend that you walked out of the door
Oh no I can’t sleep
Oh no I’m going crazy with love over you

I need you to need me
I wanna hold you but you’re holding someone else in your arms
When I close my eyes I see your face
I’m just not sure how much my heart can erase
Oh no I can’t think
Oh no I’m going crazy with love over you

Oh no I can’t sleep anymore baby
Oh no I can’t think anymore baby
Oh no I’m going crazy with love over you

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Here’s another song for the week. This can’t wait na for next week so two songs for the whole week. Malay natin kung madagdagan pa! Haha! This is my theme song for today and tomorrow and all the times he’ll be with her. My friends are in Pangasinan right now. AA is there with them with his girlfriend. He said he can’t anything about it anymore because my friends invited her. But like what I’ve said nga, there’s nothing to resolve. Our friends can’t find out kung ano na nangyayari sa min. I can’t even imagine how they’ll react if they do find out. But they know that AA is seeing me. I don’t know nga din what they’re thinking eh, kse nga I don’t go with them anymore pero AA and CO are seeing me. Niloloko pa sila ni AA na galit ako sa kanila. Haha! So anyway, I have two versions of the song, one is the original and one naman is instrumental para if you feel like singing.

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by Jann Arden

how do you cool your lips after a summer’s kiss
how do you rid the sweat after the body bliss
how do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare
how do you block the sound of a voice you’d know anywhere

i really should have known by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
that told me you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive

how do you numb your skin after the warmest touch
how do you slow your blood after the body rush
how do you free your soul after you’ve found a friend
how do you teach your heart it’s a crime to fall in love again

you probably won’t remember me, it’s probably ancient history
i’m one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you
i’m out of vogue, i’m out of touch, i fell too fast, i feel too much
i thought that you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive

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Went to Tayuman again last Saturday to get my client’s album. As always, the girl did not follow my directions. Hay nacoo! After that we had lunch at Don Henrico’s in Tomas Morato. Nothing beats Don Henrico’s Buffalo Wings! Yum-O!!! And then I waited for AA to arrive. When he got here, kwento-kwento muna with my sis then he played a little with the kids, then I did his franchise primer while he napped. Around 12mn, we went out to buy some beer. We bought 2 bottles of the Red Horse Litro and two small ones (Happy Horse). CO was online that time so we chatted with him in YM. It was fun, it’s like the three of us hanging out together again, except that CO is really miles away. We bought beer again, two more bottles of Red Horse Litro and one Happy Horse. I remember punching him on his left arm lots of times and we even played bunong braso. Haha! I think he was trying to prove that he’s strong and he is. Funny thing, parati akong nagrereklamo na tinutulugan niya ko pag lasingan and that night he didn’t sleep. We ditched CO and we had a serious drunk talk. I don’t know how many times ko siyang minura. Basta I remember telling him “T@#$&%^ mo AA” or “F#&$ you AA!” lots of times. Parang he desperately wanted to be close to me, like how I am with my other close guy friends, three in particular, DA, OC and CO. He told me he loves me a number of times but every time he did dinudugtungan ko ng “but only as a friend.” I really can’t remember what we talked about but our conversation left me feeling more depressed and frustrated. And then…

The following day (Sunday) he was supposed to go home early so he could watch Pacquiao’s game at a friend’s house who has pay-per-view. But he chose to stay and kept me company the whole day. He asked me a couple of times if I wanted to talk about last night but I declined, telling him that there’s no point in talking about it anymore. I don’t know if he wanted to hear something from or if he’s really concerned or if he’s just worried that I might not do his primer. I could tell he was a little worried because I was quiet the whole day and wouldn’t answer his questions. He went home around 7pm. I finished his primer and emailed it to him last night, along with another email telling him how I really feel after last night.

Drunk Tales: I learned something new this weekend. In every case of Red Horse Beer, there’s this one bottle which they call Happy Horse. It’s said to be much stronger than the regular Red Horse bottles. AA showed me how to look for it… with the regular bottles, the print at the back is color yellow, on the Happy Horse, the print is color red.

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