by Oasis

Made a meal and threw it up on Sunday
I’ve gotta lot of things to learn
Said I would and I’ll be leaving one day
Before my heart starts to burn

So what’s the matter with you?
Sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away

Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I’ve found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door

So what’s the matter with you?
Sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away

Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows, yeah nobody knows the way it’s gonna be

If you’re leaving will you take me with you
I’m tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart will never be your home

So what’s the matter with you?
Sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away

Hey, stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows, yeah nobody knows the way it’s gonna be

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The text message that started it all… “Tara! Let’s do something fun!” That’s what I told him and he suggested a couple of activities and we agreed on one. AA and I were supposed to meet two Fridays ago but it didn’t push through because he had a slight vehicular accident so we had to postpone our meeting. We were supposed to meet again last Friday but my Ate Jovie was spending the night at our house so I had to cancel it again because we had no place to stay. Anyway, my mind was restless and I sent him a text message again saying that I don’t usually admit that I’m weak but I did admit it to myself that time and I’m scared and told him I needed someone to be strong for me. I think that bothered him and told me that if I’m not going to MC’s place on Saturday for poker night then he’ll drop by my place on Sunday night. And he did.

So waht happened? We just TV and was about to go to sleep already when I told him na tara let’s do na that something fun. Haha! What was it? Secret! But I’ve gone up to heaven that night. Haha! But I think I pissed him off… he was waiting for me to tell a story… what’s making me weak and I didn’t. Kinulit ko lang siya ng kinulet and I think naiinis siya.

Monday, I was still bored and suggeted we drink Red Horse that night. He wanted us to go out so we just went to MC’s place and it took me a while before I finally decided to go with him. It was an eventful evening. Sumama kami kay MC when he did his rounds and then we went to the market to buy some stuff for the kiosks and then we bought beer. After dinner, inuman na! There was MC, AA, Alex, and me then later on we were joined by Jojo and Ver. I was actually having fun listening to their stories but AA had to bring up the kulitan topic and it pissed me off. So I just went out for a smoke and stayed there. Then I decided that I’d just go home. Siempre they locked the gate and wouldn’t give me the key. I even woke up TitoPabs but he told me that the key wasn’t with him and I had to wait for Jome to get home. So I did. Grabe. Galit sa kin si AA. He was almost shouting at me telling me stuff like “Kung matalino ka dapat naisip mo yan blah blah blah.” I’ve never seen him angry before, not at me anyway. Ayun I just cried and thought na sana sina DA and AC na lang kasama ko that night instead of him. Then I told him to just go away and leave me alone, but he didn’t. He just kept talking and talking… sinesermonan ako. When Jome came, I was able to go out the gate but they wouldn’t leave me alone. Nakakatawa, it was like we were playing hide and seek around the neigborhood. They kept following me everywhere I go and AA was following me with his car. Si Jome nga natutulog na sa driveways nung mga hinihintuan kong houses. Then I just decided to go back in front of MC’s house. Then nahiga ako don sa car and just waited for them to get tired and go inside the house and sleep but I didn’t succeed. Then I threw my shoe at AA kse iniinis niya ko and what he did was he threw it inside the garage. Then he took my other shoe and threw it inside the garage too. So now I was barefoot. I tried to run and get my shoes but I wasn’t fast enough so they were able to lock me inside the house again. Kaines!

The next day, I woke up early para I could leave na without them bothering me. Siempre naka-lock pa din yung gate and even Jojo and Ver couldn’t go out. So I just went back to sleep. When I woke up, AA still wouldn’t leave me alone. Kinukulit niya ko sobra. I wanted him to go home so I could go home na din but he wouldn’t leave me talaga. Hanggang sa TitoPabs talked to me na and MC asked me to go with him to the grocery. Kaya ayun inabot na kami ng gabi. I fell asleep again and when I woke up nag-aaya na si AA. This time sumama na ko kse mina-migraine na ko. We were both quiet on our way home. And that’s it.

The next day, Wednesday, nag-text ako sa kanya kse naiinis ako sa kanya. We argued a lot hanggang sa we talked na on the phone. Puro away. Hindi niya ko maintindihan and hindi ko din siya maintindihan. Super iniinis ko siya by saying stuff that doesn’t make sense pero hindi ume-effect. I guess that’s what he means by iniintindi niya ko. Parang no matter what I do or say iintindihin niya even if it doesn’t make sense and even if it makes him angry and even if naiinis na siya. Ang issue niya sa kin is still about the kulitan. And he was really expecting me to tell him what’s wrong. Sabi ko nga let’s do something fun and even though I told him I was scared and weak I didn’t mean that we resolve my issues right there and then. Yun ang hindi niya maintindihan. And then inaaway ko siya about dun sa inuman at MC’s place. Sabi ko everything was okay, I was actually enjoying it and having fun but he had to ruin it by bringin up the kulitan issue in front of Alex. Sabi ko if he has issues with me then ako yung kausapin niya and not other people. He told me “Ibang klase ka talaga Buge. A cut above the rest.” I ended up our conversion by asking him to tell me that he want me out of his life and to erase my name na sa phonebook niya. Masunurin naman and he did tell me what I asked him.

Pero siempre hindi ko pa rin siya matiis. I sent him a text message saying “Let’s start all over again. No more dramas. Let’s do what you’ve said before, let’s treat each other as how we feel towards each other. No pretentions.” And he said he like that then I asked him na lang to help me be ok. Then I asked him to go with me to my friend’s party on September 6, we’ll drink (a lot) and meet new people. Bahala na si Batman!

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by Jet Black Joe

You are the sun
You are the rain keep falling on me never get enough
You are the sun
You are the rain keep falling on me never get enough

Then why is it you are leaving?
I don’t know why you’ve come in my heart
Then why is it you’re now leaving?
I don’t know why you brought it down on me

Come on baby let’s forget about that’s you
Tried to set my mind on nothing, oh yeah
Don’t try to change me, don’t try to change me now

You are the sun
You are the rain keep falling on me never get enough
You are the sun
You are the rain keep falling on me never get enough

Come on baby let’s forget about that’s you
Tried to set my mind on nothing, oh no
Don’t try to change me, don’t try to change me now

Come on baby let’s forget about that’s you
Tried to set my mind on nothing, oh no
Don’t try to change me, don’t try to change me now
I wanna do right thing

You don’t have to change me
I already set my eyes on something, oh yeah
I really wouldn’t blame you
If you walk down out the door because of me

Come on baby let’s forget about that’s you
Tried to set my mind on something, oh yeah
Don’t try to change me, don’t try to change me now

Come on baby let’s forget about that’s you
Tried to set my mind on something, oh yeah
Don’t try to change me, don’t try to change me now
I wanna do right thing

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Saturday night, I met up with some old friends. DaWave was in town and we went out for a few drinks. We met up with some old friends and it was really fun! We reminisced about the old days and DaWave told us stories about his mom and nanay. See, the reason why he came home is because his grandma passed away and just about a month ago his mom also passed away. It was really sad but at least we got to see each other again. Bits and pieces of what happened last night are below. Kinwento ko kay AA because he was part of it and alam niyo na, nalaseng na naman ang lola niyo kaya ayan daldal na naman. It was a rainy night and the sounds from the bar kept getting louder. And here were the text messages. complete with the typo errors. Haha!

B: huy please pleears pleagse don’t mind boyet. he’s just drunk. oh ny gosh. just don’t mind him. i’m so so so sorry. just don’t mind him ha. wala na kong face na haharap sa yo. fuck3r! I’m too drunk! sorry dhn he woke you up pa. i’m really really really am rorry

AA: good morning B! You know right now am dealing with some shit, then you pull out something like this… whatever it is… makes me feel better. salamat. as to Boyet, never answered his call. Hope he won’t push it hard enough to make me react. take it easy. and if I react… it’s not your issue anymore, it’s me and Boyet’s issue already. So you better get out of the way. Hehe. Still, hope it won’t get that far.

B: don’t mind na lang if he calls again. and please don’t take it against him. sagot ko friends ko, it’s all my fault, me and my big mouth. basta ignore him na lang if he calls again. don’t answer the phone. sorry talaga ha? as in omg, I don’t know how long I have to apologize for this but I will. hey what’s wrong? I’m still a friend. about last night, I said I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to add up to whatever it is you’re dealing with right now, never meant to. and if you’re feeling shitty, welcome to my world! I thought nakausap ka niya last, pretending lang pala. Anyway, I don’t think he’ll call you. hindi naman kami close friends para ma-affect siya ng ganon. I am nothing to him, or to everyone. stupid me lang naniwala ako he was talking to you. stupid

AA: it did not add up. somehow, it made me feel better. odd but thanks.

B: na-entertain ka ba? haha! anyway, whatever it sana it’ll work out. alam mo last night nun hug ako ni DaWave, I didn’t want to let go. sobrang na-feel ko yung importance ko and I felt so safe and secure. meron pa palang ganon. parang nothing could go wrong

AA: very nice! glad you guys meet up.

B: what’s wrong pala? feel like sharing? if you don’t feel like it, I understand

AA: I was just feeling lazy about my things to do, sobrang lazy like I wanna self destruct purposely. don’t know why. then you texted me like you made a very grave mistake. that made me feel better siguro. hehe

B: oo, think of me lang and I’m sure you’ll feel a whole lot better. last night super happy ako kaya lang i made DaWave cry. and I couldn’t do anything to make him feel better first time ko siya nakita umiyak. di ko alam sasabihin ko. gusto ko siya i-hug to make it all go away per di ko magawa

AA: I thought you did hug him.

B: he did, I did, pero nun na lang pauwi na kami. not while we were talking. sobrang na-miss ko si DaWave!

AA: missing is positive, gives you some hope to meet again. good good good. I’m glad for you!

B: oo pero kelan pa ulet. Parang everyone who misses me is on the wrong side of the planet

AA: All I know is you feel better when you get what you hope for. hehe. one sided mind ata ko e.

B: I’m hopeless

B: grabe sakit ng ulo ko. tapos when I lie down on my left side, my tummy goes weird. tapos umiikot lahat inside my head

AA: hehe. sasabihin ko pa naman na ang bilis mo mag sober up.

B: di ko nga alam kung makakauwi ako e

AA: ha, asan ka?

B: bicutan. di nila ko pinauwi kse nga super laseng na ko

AA: rest ka muna. sundo kita dyan mamaya mga 2pm. hatid kita sa inyo.

So, he fetched me from Che’s place in Bicutan and brought me home to my place in Quezon City. And he never got off the car. Sabi ko nga para siyang tanga, nagsayang lang siya ng gas cause pede naman akong sumabay kila Che because they were going to Caloocan. He said it’s okay because at least he got to see me and I made him feel better nga. Weird huh? But I’m touched… especially dun sa part na he let me rest first then brought me home. We might see each other again this Friday… and as always, bahala na si Batman!

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by Jim Photoglo

When love is gone I always get the feeling I can’t go on
I find myself dreaming of days that couldn’t end
And all things we never said, oh oh

When love is gone will I ever be the same?
Well I don’t want chasing heartaches and learn to face the day
When I have done what I must do
Oh, I’ll remember you

When love is gone everyone’s in couples as I walk alone
Thinking I’ll never find that little love and never know the beauty of all, oh

When love is gone will I ever be the same?
Well I don’t want chasing heartaches and learn to face the day
When I have done what I must do
Oh, I’ll remember you

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by Boomtown Rats

The silicon chip inside her head gets switched to overload
And nobody’s gonna go to school today, she’s going to make them stay at home
And daddy doesn’t understand it, he always said she was as good as gold
And he can see no reason cause there are no reasons
What reason do you need to be shown?

Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
I want to shoot the whole day down

The telex machine is kept so clean as it types to a waiting world
And mother feels so shocked, father’s world is rocked
And their thoughts turn to their own little girl
Sweet 16 ain’t so peachy keen, no, it ain’t so neat to admit defeat
They can see no reasons cause there are no reasons
What reason do you need to be shown?

Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
I want to shoot the whole day down

All the playing’s stopped in the playground now
She wants to play with her toys a while
And school’s out early and soon we’ll be learning
And the lesson today is how to die
And then the bullhorn crackles and the captain crackles
With the problems and the how’s and why’s
And he can see no reasons cause there are no reasons
What reason do you need to die?

Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays
I want to shoot the whole day down

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The week is just beginning and it’s already been crazy for me so far. Aaarrrgggh! Yeah I generally don’t like Mondays. So, here’s what I have lined up, on the top of my head, waiting for me to be done… 2 albums for my client, at least 5 layouts for my CTs, clean my room and backup my files. The first 3 I have to finish by Wednesday. Good luck me! And my head is starting to ache already. I’m not so sure if it’s because of the loud music I’m playing or because of doing too much extractions of photos or because I haven’t eaten lunch yet or the combination of all three. Haha! Yeah I have to keep my music loud so my mind won’t be pre-occupied with other things. So much to do, so little time… and what am I doing? Blogging! Haha! Nah, I’m just resting a bit then I’m back to work. Have a great week everyone and hope the start of your week is not as crazy as mine!

P.S. Do you know the story behind this song? You can read it in an old post on my other blog.

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by Shawn Stockman

Lived all my days
Trying to embrace
Life with my heart by all the beauty I feel and create

It spins and moves
Flows at my pace
Telling its story from the tear running down my face

Visions of a sunset just appear when I close my eyes
Takes me closer to heaven when the flute starts to fly
And the violin cries

Confusion leaves
While peace orchestrates
Runs through my veins and in other seekers it penetrates

My reason why
The big city air smells so sweet
Takes me through journeys in time from my youth to as far as I can see

Visions of a sunset just appear when I close my eyes
Takes me closer to heaven when the flute starts to fly
And the violin cries

It’s all I need in my life
And no one can take your place by my side
You’re all inside of me

Visions of a sunset just appear when I close my eyes
Takes me closer to heaven when the flute starts to fly
And the violin cries

We’ll free from all sorrow like the wind blows from the sky
Takes me closer to heaven when the flute starts to fly
And the violin cries

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This is from the soundtrack of the movie Mr. Holland’s Opus and it reminds me so much of my friend Ronald! He is a very talented musician and I remember him and me talking on the phone, me singing while he plays his instruments. He’s very talented, he can play at least 5 instruments and he sings well too! I got to know this song through him. I miss you Bunald!

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by Nina

One of these days
One of these very ordinary days
You’re gonna call my name and I won’t be there

After the days
After these very very many days
You’re gonna see the light and I won’t be there

And on that day somehow I’ll find the strength to stay away
I won’t give in, I will not let myself be taken in… again
Oh no my friend

One of these days
Out of the blue you’ll start remembering
And I won’t care cause I won’t be there

Oh and on that day I swear I’ll find the strength somehow to stay away
I won’t give in, I will not let myself be taken in… again
Oh no my friend

That’s what I say
That’s what I tell myself… I won’t give in
So try it someday and you’ll see that I won’t be there

No, you know, no, you know I won’t be there
One of these, one of these, one of these days
I won’t be there
No, I won’t be there

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I have a confession… yesterday was the the first birthday party of my friend’s son and I didn’t go. Yes I know that was not nice but that’s part of the consequences of trying to stay away from AA. If I stay away from him then I also stay away from our friends. Instead of going to the party, I just drowned myself in alcohol. It was only 4:30 in the afternoon and I was already drunk. AA sent me a text message asking me if I was going to the party and I replied something like “hahabol ako dapat but don’t worry hindi na ko punta.” And today he messaged me and told me that I was already drunk when I texted him yesterday but he didn’t say kung anong tinext ko. I just told him that I couldn’t remember anymore. And CO is in Manila. I called him yesterday asking him if it’s okay if I won’t go to the party. I think he’s already getting tired of what I’m doing cause he simply told me not to ask him what I’m going to do. I remember about two weeks ago, MC asked me if I will go with them when he and AA go to Pangasinan for some business stuff. I told him I’d go if AA asks me to. Even though AA and I see MC more frequent than our other friends, he doesn’t have a clue what’s going on between AA and me. But I guess medyo nakakahalata na din siya… sa dinami-daming beses ko ba naman siya tinurn down pag nag-aaya siyang uminom. And somehow my conscience is bugging me because every weekend na lang MC invites me na mag-inuman pero I keep turning him down. Sometimes nga when he texts me, I don’t reply anymore na lang instead of making excuses and lying. Pagod na din ako.

So, I’ve been thinking and crying a lot lately. I’ve been thinking about my friends and I’ve never really admitted this to anybody but I feel that they only remember me when they need something from me. Not of all of them but most of them. I remember one time when CO and I were chatting, sabi niya na nagwo-worry sila about me because I might not have anyone to talk to pag may problem ako… parang gusto kong maging sarcastic and sagutin siya na “Ah talaga? How come I don’t see or feel that?” Pero tumahimik na lang ako. Don’t get me wrong… they are great friends, really. I just don’t feel I’m special to them. Earlier today pala, I was talking to CO on the phone. I told him that when he gets married, I will not attend his wedding because I sort of don’t like weddings… and his reply? “Papatayin kita!” Of course, he wouldn’t do that kse mananalo ko sa bet namin on who’s gonna die first sa min dalawa. Ayun, tinulugan ako sa phone. He’ll be leaving again for the US on Friday.

With regards to AA naman, he is a good friend and I believe in his sincerity. But a lot has happened these past few months and I think that what has been said and done is driving him away from me. I know he’s trying his best to understand everything about me but I don’t think he will be able to comprehend or embrace what’s deep inside of me or yung takbo ng utak ko. Hindi naman sa minamaliit ko siya, I’m aware lang that I’m a really difficult person and I’m too much to handle.

Ewan ko ba… iba kase talaga yung feeling eh, like when I think about my other friends like JR, DA and OC, kahit na we’re not together I still feel so secure. Kahit na matagal na kaming hindi kami nagkakausap or nagkikita, I know andon pa din talaga yung friendship, yung care, yung concern. Yun na nga yun siguro, I don’t feel secure anymore sa friendship ko with CO and AA. Or am I just being paranoid?

Alas, my song for this week… especially dedicated to AA. Sarcastic ba?

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by Lea Salonga

After all the tears I’ve cried
You’d think I would give up on love, get off this line
But maybe I might get it right this time

I was there as passion turned to pain
Sunshine turned to rainy days yet here I am
Ready to begin once again

All my life I’ve been a dreamer
Dreaming dreams that always broke in two
But I still believe in love and I love believing
Maybe you can make my dreams come true

Here content with who I am
I’m reaching out my hand to him once again
At least I know I’ve made myself a friend

All my life I’ve been a dreamer
Dreaming dreams that never quite came true
But I still believe in love and I love believing
I’ll keep on dreaming because I still believe in love
I still believe in love and me and you
I still believe in love

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by The Beatles

Two of us riding nowhere
Spending someone’s hard earned pay
You and me Sunday driving
Not arriving on our way back home
We’re on our way home, we’re on our way home
We’re going home

Two of us sending postcards
Writing letters on my wall
You and me burning matches
Lifting latches on our way back home
We’re on our way home, we’re on our way home
We’re going home

You and I have memories
Longer than the road that stretches out ahead

Two of us wearing raincoats
Standing so low in the sun
You and me chasing paper
Getting nowhere on our way back home
We’re on our way home, we’re on our way home
We’re going home

You and I have memories
Longer than the road that stretches out ahead

Two of us wearing raincoats
Standing so low in the sun
You and me chasing paper
Getting nowhere on our way back home
We’re on our way home, we’re on our way home
We’re going home

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I’ve been blabbering non-stop about AA, it is about time I talk about somebody else. This week’s song is somewhat a happy song… for me, that is. It reminds me of one of my best friends, CO. He’s my forever platonic friend, people wonder why we’re just friends. Haha!

My Duet
We’re the official “songers” of our group. Our voices blend perfectly together when we sing and he’s good with second voices. I remember in college we’d sing the Philippine National Anthem, yep, complete with second voice, just to piss off our friends. Ang kulet! We’d sing on the phone until dawn. We like the same songs. We’d sing songs even on emails (when we’re far away from each other and couldn’t talk on the phone). And our favorite song? Ikaw ang nasa isip ko. Hinahanap-hanap kita. Walang ibang champion ang buhay ko. Nais kong malamam mo na ikaw ang tanging champion ng buhay ko. Champion talaga! Hahaha!

My Enemy
CO and I fought a lot of times already. We fought because of birdwatching, because of a comment he made, because of a book, and our biggest fight was because of a set of nagatives. Haha! I always start it… except for the book. He got mad at me over a book that I gave him as a gift. It was a book about birdwatching and since we just had a fight, I still gave him the book but told him “mag-birdwatching ka mag-isa mo!” He was tempted to return the book, said it was useless because we’re not going birdwatching together. As in nagalit siya talaga sa kin and that scared me. Since then, I’m already careful not to get him mad. Inis and pikon okay lang, but not mad.

My Confidant
CO knows almost everything about me. Tip: if you want to blackmail me, befriend him! Haha! He’d stay awake until the wee hours of the morning just to listen to my stories, secrets, vents. I’d even call him sometimes and just cry my heart out and not say a word. He keeps me sane… I could talk to him about anything and he wouldn’t find it awkward or weird or boring. He know the secret affairs of my heart… my hidden desires, my heartaches, etc. He’s the one I run to when I’m troubled and I always listen to what he has to say and almost always follow his advices. Masunurin akong bata eh! Haha!

My Drinking Buddy
He’s one of my drinking buddies, mine and AA’s actually, and yes we can be trusted to be alone together when we’re drunk. Platonic nga eh! Haha! I remember when we went to Tia Maria’s in Malate one time. It was open bar night and tequila shots kept arriving on our table. We were so drunk we just sat on the floor outside TM’s and kept on laughing because we both couldn’t stand up anymore, as in nakalupasay kami don. Haha! Then after a few minutes, he was missing already. AA looked for him and found him inside a somebody’s car, sleeping. Buti na lang it belonged to AA’s friend. Then when he got CO already, ako naman yung nawala. Haha! He found me inside TM’s again dancing. They went crazy that night because of CO and me! Haha! Same thing also when we went to Quezon. CO locked himself inside the bathroom and fell asleep and I was crying naman on one corner. Para silang may alagang mga bata.

My Activity Partner
Yes it’s fun to travel with friends, with a big group… but sometimes it’s also fun to travel by twos or threes only. CO and I went to Palawan for 9 days with JT. And then we went to Thailand and Cambodia for 14 days. Sometimes we traveled with our other friends MC and JE, who were based in Bangkok that time, but most of the time it’s just the two of us. We went to Majayjay with CB, and then one holy week, we explored Makati and Intramuros with CB also. I don’t have to think and I’m not scared when I’m with him, he takes care of everything for me. And even if we’re with our other friends, it feels like we have our own little world where kami lang ang nagkakaintindihan. We could stay awake on an 8-hour bus drive without getting bored. We’d play mind games, etc. Yun nga lang, he’s too intellectual I sometimes feel stupid. Haha! Too bad I wasn’t able to go Myanmar with him, he went alone. But he was thinking of me lots of time, imagining what would happen if I were there. He missed me! Haha!

Some of our famous lines:
AFM ako eh. (Alcohol-Free Month)
Pano na friendship namin ni AA pag wala ka?
Wag kang matulog! Wag kang matulog! (It’s a song. Haha!)
(In response to wag kang matulog) Hindi ako natutulog. Pinapahinga ko lang mata ko!
Wait lang, may too-toot! (referring to the beeping sound when there’s call-waiting on the phone)

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No I’m not crying for help and I’m not gonna either… not now. I was thinking of writing about CO today but decided to just do it next time. So, why this song? AA and I went to a Family KTV in Baguio and surprisingly (for me), he chose this song. I never imagined him liking this song… he’s more into rock and alternative. He even knew who the artist was when usually it’s just the title of the song. So me naman, I listened to the lyrics very carefully… feeling ko siempre in a way ako yung pinapatamaan niya. Kapal ko talaga! Usually when I’m troubled, I’d tell him what’s wrong but wouldn’t spill the details or whenever I did naman I’d tell him sorry kse siya nagiging shock-absorber ko. And whenever he tried to comfort me, I’d try to convince him I’ll be fine. He knows kse my problems (aside from those that he caused) that’s why he’s really trying to understand me. Eh he knows I’m still not that open to him when it comes to my troubles. It’s usually CO whom I ran to but he’s not here right now so, it’s AA. And whenever I tell AA my troubles, I’d always say sorry afterwards, you know, for making him listen and for wasting his time. I know naman he appreciates my openness to him, hindi lang talaga ko sanay na sa kanya mag open-up. And whenever we’d have an arguement, I’d make him feel guilty. Or whenever I start a serious conversation, ako yung maiinis in the end and he’d feel guilty. Yeah, sometimes harsh siya but he’s doing that to shut me up cause if not, lalo lang magwo-worsen yung conversation namin. He doesn’t know how to handle me yet pagdating sa mga ganto, unlike CO, alam niya kung anong gagawin sa kin. So anyway, here’s the song… enjoy listening!

P.S. Rick Astley looks good here! Gwapo! He actually wrote this song. And did you know that he plays the drums? And he was just starting in the music business as an artist, people who haven’t seen him yet thought that he was black because of his soulful voice!

CRY FOR HELP
Rick Astley

She’s taken my time, convinced me she’s fine
But when she leaves I’m not so sure
It’s always the same, she’s playing her game
And when she goes I feel to blame
Why won’t she say she needs me
I know she’s not as strong as she seem

Why don’t I see a cry for help
Why don’t I feel a cry for help
Why don’t I hear her cry for help

I wandered around the streets of this town
Trying to find sense in it all
The rain on my face, it covers the trace
Of all the tears I’ve had to waste
Why must we hide emotions
Why must we ever break down and cry

All that I need is to cry for help
Somebody please hear me cry for help
All I can do is cry for help

No need to feel ashamed
Release the pain and cry for help

Why must we hide emotions
Why can’t we ever break down and cry

All that I need is to cry for help
I will be there when you cry for help
Why don’t I hear her cry for help
All that I need is a cry for help
Somebody please hear me cry for help
All I can do is cry for help
All that I need is to cry for help
I will be there when you cry for help
Is it so hard to cry for help

No need to feel ashamed
Come on and release the pain
Now put your trust in me
My love is gonna set you free
All I need is a cry for help

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by Regine Velasquez

Pagmasdan ang ulan unti-unting pumapatak
Sa mga halama’t mga bulaklak
Pagmasdan ang dilim unti-unting bumabalot
Sa buong paligid tuwing umuulan

Kasabay ng ulan bumubuhos ang iyong ganda
Kasabay ng hanging kumakanta
Maaari bang huwag ka nang
Sa piling ko’y lumisan pa
Hanggang ang hangi’t ula’y tumila na

Buhos na ulan aking mundo’y lunuring tuluyan
Tulad ng pag-agos mo
Di mapipigil ang puso kong nagliliyab
Pag-ibig ko’y umaapaw
Damdamin ko’y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

Pagmasdan ang ulan unti-unting tumitila
Ikaw ri’y magpapaalam na
Maaari bang minsan pa
Mahagkan ka’t maiduyan pa
Sa tubig at ulan lamang ang saksi

Minsan pa ulan bumuhos ka
Huwag nang tumigil pa
Hatid mo ma’y bagyo
Dalangin ito ng puso kong sumasamo
Pag-ibig ko’y umaapaw
Damdamin ko’y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

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I found this version of the song with guitars only by Nel Pascual. I hope he doesn’t mind me sharing his talent with you… thanks Nel!

Anyway, this song is perfect for today… it’s raining! Hope I could still jog though. I love rain! But I hate umbrellas! I’d rather get wet and go home drenched than bring an umbrella. I really don’t know why… maybe because I’m too lazy. Rain actually brings back a lot of good memories.

There were a couple of times when it started raining and CO, AA and I ran to the court in our village and bathe in the rain and played like kids. It was fun! We ran around the court, singing and jumping on puddles. People from the houses around the court were staring at us but we didn’t mind them and just thought they’re only jealous cause they didn’t have the guts to do what we did. Haha! When we got home, we all took a bath together on our veranda because we couldn’t go inside the house because we were dripping wet.

And here’s another rain story… there was this one time, we climbed Mt. Tikbalang in Batangas for our org’s acquaintance trip. We started the climb at night (it was an easy climb, only 40 minutes or less) and it started raining. When it was time for the socials already, we had this game called moonshine. The idea of the game was to let the moon shine on our body… no cameras and flashlights allowed… just the moon and us. Those of us who joined were asked to form a circle and to face outside the circle. Then we were asked to remove our clothes (but not our underclothes) and to face inside the circle in the count of three. When we were already facing inside the circle, people started laughing. So I looked around and then found out why… QS (the other love of my life) wasn’t wearing anything! We were just supposed to take off our shirt and shorts but not our undies! Haha! Turned out, he took of his undies after pitching the tent because he was drenched from the rain. Hahaha! And then he went in the middle of the circle and started dancing and swaying his shorts in the air. Of course he was covering his thingy with his other hand. Haha! It was so funny and he was such a good sport!

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